The ex apologized for everything a year ago and he has continued to be supportive of the life I have with my loving family. He says he is glad I am happy in my life. I sense his sincerity by his words and actions. His life has been filled with addiction and drama. And there has been a lot of darkness. He has a fragile heart so I wanted to offer prayer to Grandmother and Grandfather to help guide him in the direction of the good road. I wanted to return the goodwill that he has shown towards me.
The Lodge was so very hot this time. I know what the heat represents and there is no longer any fear for my physical health.
Ceremony was strong and powerful. There were many who needed doctoring today and nine Sundancers were called in to assist. All the drummers participated as well as the whistle blowers and the pipe carriers. Bear medicine was passed around and I put some over my heart to help heal the emotional stuff that I experienced so long ago with the ex. After 4 rounds we exited the Lodge and as I exited I felt a weakness come over me. I sat on my towel outside the Lodge as my body recovered. Releasing the past exhausted my body . I realized while I was praying for him during ceremony I was receiving healing in return. Meegwetch.
The Feast was fabulous too.
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