A Bear and an Old Boyfriend

Six months ago an old flame contacted me via email, after having no contact for 20 years. It was a violent and passionate relationship, and I loved him completely and foolishly. He broke my fragile young heart. Eventually I left, moved to a different city and never spoke with him again. A little over six months ago he emailed saying he was sorry.

Yesterday he emailed saying when he was in BC he came across a mother bear with her 2 cubs. The huge mother bear had been hit by a car and was trying to recover next to an orchard when he took this picture. How odd for him to send this to me, how odd that I have been dreaming of being chased by a huge bear regularly for the last 20 years, how odd that my very last bear dream was of a sick bear.

Tonight while running I made the connection between my last bear dream and the time he first contacted me, around Oct'08. Furthermore, the first bear dream that I can remember having was a few months after I left him, just as I was beginning to date my husband. Can I trust my memory to be true? And if it is, what am I to make of it?

The Real Feast

2 months ago the real feast took place on Andre's farm, at the site of his red wolf dream.....the one he told me about when I received my name. I requested to have it there with Jennifer...low key. One of the highlights of that event was halfway through the ceremony when Andre said he was going to sing a song. He had the drum too. As he sang the voices of old men took over. This comforted me greatly and I began to cry. At the end of the song Andre explained he dreamed that song just before he woke up that morning.